Experienced in These Years

Too much, I have experienced in these years,
Too many are those who owe me tears.
I remember that gray platform
Where the rain carried a friend.

The refrain:

Then do not bloom
My dear apple trees,
Neither anyone whispered in my ear:
Darling, do not forget me.

Never have I been afraid
Yet on this trip until tomorrow.
Little boy has avoided the dangers
side by side the kind woman reflection.

The refrain:

I know the mothers weeping eyelids
Do not explain the words out loud,
They just give their boys love for guidance
and prayers for protection.

The final two times:

Now bloom my dear
Sacred apple trees.
They have the heavenly scent,
The fragrance that never go away.
©Yelling Rosa
in December 1982



I have written this song in December 1982 after reading Salvatore Quasimodo’s poem Letter to My Mother and while the rain gently fingered the face of my window. The plot of the poem and the raindrops brought some memories in my mind. I was forced to admit that I have been many places where I couldn’t manage without my positive childhood experiences just like Salvatore. I have stood alone on the platform of farewell like our poet.

The white apple tree blossom is the symbol of the purity in the Karelian folklore where my family is from. Somehow I always smell their scent when I return in my happy childhood. That’s why when the character of the song starts his journey there is no sign of the blossom. He is totally alone and depressed but when time goes on he grows stronger by remembering positive things. In the end he is even grateful for the life and praises the motherly love.

The record Läpi näiden vuosien (Experienced in these years) is published early in 1983. Here I perform this song with the guitar accompaniment during the live concert in summer 1983. First you will see some information in Finnish on video but don’t worry performance will soon begin. In that time I used my real name Ilkka Pakarinen as I always do when I am not in the role of the poet.

This translation explains the story of the song but is not similar in appearance with the Finnish syllable amount. The verse lines are equal.

I hope you enjoy travelling with me in the spirit, that the sun will shine also on the heap of the brushwood (Finnish Proverb).

I apologize that the comments were off many hours after this Experienced in These Years post was published. Windows Live Writer caused this malfunction. It took a while that I got it right way and changed the settings in Live Writer. I hope that everyone will have a nice weekend.


P.S. Du kan finna denna lyrik på svenska här.


About Yelling Rosa

I desing home pages. In my spare time I read, write, play the guitar and hike. I have published three verse books in Finnish and recorded my songs. You can listen to them on YouTube. I have translated some of my poems on Yelling Rosa's Weblog. I also like to watch movies. Olen kiinnostunut lukemisesta, kirjoittamisesta, kitaransoitosta ja luonnossa vaeltamisesta. Olen julkaissut kolme runokirjaa ja laulujani on äänitteillä. Voit lukea runojani Yelling Rosan kotisivuilta ja kuunnella laulujani YouTubessa. Olen elokuvafriikki.
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43 Responses to Experienced in These Years

  1. Yelling Rosa says:

    I apologize that the comments were off many hours after this Experienced in These Years post was published. Windows Live Writer caused this malfunction. It took a while that I got it right way and changed the settings in Live Writer. I hope that everyone will have a nice weekend.


  2. Jackie says:

    Beautiful! I enjoyed listening to that very much. 🙂


  3. Ossiblock says:

    Gefällt mir sehr gut! Sehr tiefsinnig und gut gesungen.


  4. Konstantina says:

    sad by nice.


  5. Don says:

    I thoroughly enjoyed the song. You have a beautiful voice. So good to listen to. Thank you.


  6. Dilip says:

    The song is soothing and sad. The poem too is beautiful. Thank you.


  7. Kate Comings says:

    That was beautiful. It’s raining outside my window, too. Thanks for visiting my blog.


  8. misspikkumyy says:



  9. annapos says:

    Neznám vaši řeč, jsem vděčna za překladače? Ale vaše řeč je tak krásná a malebná, že je jako hudba. Poslouchám a jsem šťastna a mám radost z té chvíle. Anna


  10. So very beautiful! Your voice, lyrics, wonderful.


  11. Thanks for sharing such good song You are so talent and amaze … beauty melody and the poetry that you wrote they all so beauty and all the same like you wrote the character depressed then bring a little depressed song … that good part . Like it . I want to share this on my facebook page 🙂


  12. Very nice your poetry and melody,thanks for your sharing!


  13. Hi Rosa, how lovely, your blog is very nice and your writing great and song you wrote is lovely..sherri..
    thank you for the follow and likes..


  14. Great! FB please 🙂


  15. afinebinario says:

    Beautiful post, very nice.
    Take care 😉


  16. Mary says:

    Thank you for visiting http://maryaperez.com/2014/04/28/the-measure-of-days/ – You are gifted in your own right. Keep up the great work!


  17. maijaharrington says:

    Thank you for stopping by http://maijaharrington.com ! I’m glad you did, for that is how I learned about YOUR website! I am also a Suomalainen, and our family home was in Rovaniemi, so I immediately took notice when I read about you. I’ll be following your blog now. I look forward to getting acquainted with your poetry & music. I hope you’ll have a chance to return to my website for more true adventures and misadventures with our pugs as well.

    Best wishes!
    Maija Alakulppi Harrington

    PS: Perhaps you’ve heard of my father Olavi Alakulppi, from the Winter War and Continuation War(Mannerheimin Ristin Ritari #72) ?


    • Yelling Rosa says:

      Thank you for your information. It’s always nice to meet a Fellow Citizen. This Yellingrosa’s Weblog is only one of my Internet spots but I guess at this point you would be interested in reading my verse collection Postrahavasta. You can do it free at: http://www.yellingrosa.com/Tilaukset/ I call them “jutturunoiksi”. I focus on this new liberalism, which doesn’t respect old traditions, from the common man point of view using the humor which is well-known here in Lapland. My music page is at: http://yellingrosa.com/musiikki01.htm

      I will visit your website again because I like to keep in touch with other bloggers. Your pugs seem to be quite characters in a good way. It is a miracle how animals can adopt so many different behavior patterns depending on the environment they live. Humans lack this capability and that’s the one reason why we are so destructive for this globe. We don’t conform to the environment but the environment must conform to us. Our arrogance is the worst of all our absurdities. We are so proud that we are not allowed to criticize, even if it would be for our own good. It is out of the question that the lord of the creation could learn something from animals.

      I remember when I expressed this kind of thought in school. I was thrown out of the class to the corridor. In that sense, something has gone to the better direction. Now I am just a funny boy who happens to like animals. 😉

      Take care and enjoy the piece

      P.S. I read about Olavi Alakulppi on Wikipedia. He made a career in US Army but I guess you can speak and read Finnish, anyway.


  18. w8screens says:

    einen schönen Dienstag wünsche ich


  19. elisa ruland says:

    Your poetry and music are beautiful. I find that certain smells bring me back to many different places…that and music. Lovely, lovely work.


  20. Dalo 2013 says:

    Loved this piece of work Ilkka, gives me a great feeling of being elsewhere (Finland perhaps, although I’ve never been). The guitar & voice, is what I like about folk music ~ as it can find a home in any culture. Well done.


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